I'd like to apologize for my abscence here, it was never my intention to drop off all over again, but there's been so much in my life going on right now and a huge chunk of it i can't really explain as it is a very personal and opinionated matter.

I want so bad to return to this site, upload, comment, and view everyones work, I have missed you all terribly.

I had decided I wanted a break from anything artistic, and to try and sort my life out, I was suffering from a severe bout of manic depession, I had to seek out a therapist who did nothing for me, so it only lasted three sessions. i had decided I would try and sort out my own life, in retrospect it was not a good idea to try on my own, I stopped eating, starting excersizing with no fuel in me just to see results fast, yes I lost weight, and spent my days dizzy, fainting, or feeling so ill, i had survived off grapes, about 4 or 5 a day until a few weeks after my ex got to me start eating again. I still am finding it hard to keep most food down and my appetite has dropped immensely.

Life has just been the same rollercoaster it has always been.

On an outing with friends at a bar I met a boy, he got my number and we started hanging out, I didn't want a relationship but he suckered me into it anyway, and I still haven't dropped my wall he's been very patient with me and understanding.

Spook my lovely little albino hamster passed on not long ago, the boy was there for my little burial and final goodbyes.

He lived a full long life, well over 2 years old, sired many children, and his blindness never once bothered him, he passed in my arms so he didn't go alone. I miss him terribly though.

My youngest male yet Gally developed what appeared to be a tumour, and I worried about medical expenses and losing him, as it developed on his cheek, I was lucky and it was a cycst that popped, and after a good cleaning and some tlc he's doing and looking great.

I had made a decision almost a week ago to pull out my old bird cage set it up and get a baby bird of some variety.
So I now have this gorgeous light blue with a white head baby budgie named Yoshi.

Puff the old cat is still with me, her medical situation had to take a back seat due to unforseen circumstances, but I know she will not be with me for christmas.

I spent my first Canadian Thanksgiving alone, but I worked until ten and kept my mind off the fact I woud be alone.

My parents have moved a half an hour away so I am not able to spend much time with them or see them at all.

Friends are back at their schools so i'm left here feeling a little more alone.

I'm hoping to save up for a new camera so I can resume harassing the critters with thousand of pics.

Hopefully I can return to updating this place periodically, i'm really sorry, I miss all of you and I hope you're all well.